The Experience of Self-Realization

So I think it’s important for us to consider—to stop and consider—how it is we have come to realize things, so that the next time we’re realizing something, we, we might have a better chance of stopping and acknowledging that. This is called honoring our experience. Honoring our experience.

So how does this happen for us? How does this, how does Knowledge move in our experience? In part, how does it get our attention? And so for us, it’s worth considering some of our realizations are slow-growing. Then there are other times when we’re completely struck; we’re completely struck.

The thing about realizations—this is important: I think we do take note of them. Now to what extent remains uncertain. I mean it varies person-to-person. I’ve actually eventually gotten myself to keep a log; to stop, to acknowledge that I was just struck by something. I saw, something. I felt something. What was that? It goes somewhere. It goes somewhere. And my charge is, at some point along the line, every now and then, to stop and go back and look at those realizations to see if there’s anything else I can discern from them. What was that? What was that?— to become familiar with my own experience and to acknowledge that it’s happening; that I actually do see things and feel things. They’re beyond just the apparent. I always have. So have you. So have you.

You know, it can be an oncoming, slow, slow approaching realization: the need to change careers, something about our health, where we live, the condition of people closest to us, our parents—things of this nature. But the being struck…But the important thing I think to consider is that realizations bring with them power—compelling power. It may have to mount for a time. But each of them brings with it the power to compel us at some point to move—to move. And to that end, you know, there’s a, there’s a strange dichotomy in the New Message where it talks about time; that we don’t have much time, that we don’t have much time. But we need time. We need time to come to terms with our experience and to negotiate what must be done.

But we don’t have much time. So it’s difficult. And we spent some time today considering this: the pressure between these two things, these two realities, is not much time. It’s true. It’s true.

So, there’s the experience of seeing, being struck, having some kind of realization. And then there’s the time to be with, to be with; to either know or not know as a result of it; to have to wait for more or not. And then there’s seeing. There’s the process of knowing. And then there’s what must I do? What must I do? This is time. It takes time. There’s time there. But then, there’s the upward movement of What must I do?, which is the pushing off, the pushing out. The moving away from, the moving towards; the laying down of responsibilities, the assuming of responsibilities; training, learning, acquiring skills. And often the reason for doing this is so far out. I can’t even think, even in my situation when I look back, oh my God! Could I ever have known—no—where this was leading me and what it ultimately would require of me? This process of seeing, knowing and taking action—where would it lead?

So for now we just have to negotiate what’s in front of us. We have to negotiate what’s in front of us. So there’s the call the world. There’s the overall trend line of our lives. It’s emerging. This isn’t like we’re plotting a course necessarily.

We’re hoping to discern.